My name is Carmen Low and I’m an addict – to emotion. It has been 1 day and 14 hours since my last emotion…. What can I do? Will rehab or more Kinesiology balancing cure my addiction???

Now I must tell you that I have champagne taste when it comes to emotions, only the best will cut it! The ones that really float-my-boat is the “what about me?” and “no one loves me, everybody hates me, think I’ll go eat worms” type of emotions. The more whiney and more whingey, the better (who started playing those violins?). “Whoa is me” has been my personal mantra.

It’s funny though. I only discovered this deep dark secret when it wasn’t there anymore…come closer, and I’ll tell you more.

The Secret

I have been loving life lately – running heaps, seeing beautiful clients, having some wonderful fun times with friends and feeling so happy. Of course I didn’t actually realise this until someone told me. Then, what did I do?

I fell prey to my old addiction.

Questions start to whir around in my head - Why am I feeling this good?? Surely there is something wrong with me. I start thinking (and believing) it’s too good to be true, because life is never this easy for me – not for long periods anyway. What should I do? I know (lightbulb moment)!! I will worry about it. That will really bring up all those old gunky, yucky emotions I love to hate. That will give me my hit, and of course, it did.

It sounds crazy, but you will be surprised at how many people do the same thing, especially when they suddenly realise their life is exactly how they want it to be.

What is the Cure?

Ok, now I’m aware of my very, very, very bad habit - awareness is a good start. The next part is changing the behaviour and actions that go with it. You can do all the healing and energy work you like to get to the core of these innate habits, however, you must do some physical changing as well. This is really where headway is made.

For me, I lose my focus, too easily. When I’m getting on with things, life is joyous and easy. It is when I get distracted, discouraged or fall of my perch, that I start replaying my mantra. So for me, I need to find a way, and quickly, to re-focus.

A few suggestions I have come up with are – vision boards, plans, structures, and a good whack over the head from time to time. (I’m still working on this one, as the whacks over the head are giving me a headache.) Regardless, I know what I have to do, I just need to find ‘my way’ of doing it.

So the moral to this story (because I love morals) is to be aware of your own patterns of behaviours, especially the unhealthy ones. Put some physical mechanisms in place and pay attention. The energy you (and I) are wasting on this pointless and fruitless exercise is only delaying your progress towards a better lifestyle.

I know I don’t want that, do you?